I'm still far more than lost in my current situation in life. Trying to figure out what you want to do in your life is so difficult! I'm at a crossroads and at this point I'm just sitting in the middle of the path, not choosing a way to go and not knowing at all which way I'm leaning towards. I see all of these friends in my life making choices and decisions and knowing exactly what they're going to do with their lives. I'm jealous of them. They seem so happy with their decisions and so excited for the future. I'm terrified of even making a decision in fear that I'll get it wrong or I'll regret it.
"Do you what will make you happy, do what you feel is right only but one thing matters, learn how to live your life." - Relient K, College Kids
I wish it was that easy
Like I stated in my first blog this is not about my whining this is about me starting over and changing my life so I'm doing something important
This is a picture that represents what I wish my life was
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart, do not depend on your own understanding. Seek his will in all you do, and he will show you which path to take." - Proverbs 3: 5-6
On a positive note this last weekend I participated in the Polar Bear Plunge. I raised money for Special Olympics. I raised a lot more than I anticipated and I am so grateful for that. On Saturday I walked into a freezing cold lake 28° (felt way worse than that!) It was incredibly worth it. For me walking into that water and slowly losing feeling in my legs as I moved deeper into the lake and then turning back towards the beach and falling face first in the water woke me up. It was a fresh start. I was so cold and I didn't enjoy it but after the fact I wish I could do it again and really soak up every minute. Replay the intense cold grasping my body. It was amazing.
